I woke up this morning for the first time feeling like everything is going to be okay.
It's been 2 months since my husband moved out. I've been waking up every morning with amnesia and have had to remind myself of my new life.
This morning I awoke in my room and saw this beautiful burst of sunlight and flower pins and hairclips that I had hanging and remembered what I loved. What inspires me. What makes me get up in the morning.
In writing my Painting book I realized that I was writing medicine to myself, my future self. As Helen Keller said:
My husband and I had a beautiful and complex relationship where we loved each other and were artistic allies. There is so much mystery to people. There is so much that I won’t understand, but what I do know is that we must continue to “show the world our magic” and align ourselves to our own truth and aliveness.
Today I decided to paint my own magic for the first time in my studio in months and it felt AWESOME.
I realized while writing my book that what you put on your canvas is really a mirror for your life. By being daring on my canvas, my life broke open in a new way and is waiting for me to begin.
45 comments:
Oh, Mati! What an inspiring post! You have so much love to give and magic to share. Sending you much hope, love and healing. xoxo
Dear Mati, I am sorry to hear this, but I am sure that everything will be allright! Your post ist wonderful and conforting. Thank you so much for sharing. Yesterday I painted the first time since a long time and it felt oh so good. Ok it´s not the best painting ever but I am so happy to finally have overcome the fear of the blank canvas.
beautifully and *perfectly* expressed, dear one :)
my friend, I am glad to see you here in this space. and I know that everything is going to be okay. and I love you. xo
awe. sorry to here you are going through rough times. glad you got back in your studio. I haven't touched my artwork for 5 months!
Plus you have sparkly shoes pointing the way forward. warmth and more permanent being okay wished for you today.
Absolutely, gorgeous Mati Rose!
I so admire the courage that it took for you to write about this ~ and here's to showing the world YOUR magic! We love it!
xox
Mati, I'm sorry about the news, but you are right, you will be okay. It's a new beginning and it will be good. You are such an amazing artist. Put your emotions on canvas and create more magic. Blessings to you!
So sorry for your pain, Mati. ((Hugs)) Those flowers ornaments against the sun seem to hold such promise. Glad you could paint from your heart today.
Catherine Denton
Mati- I'm with everyone else here, celebrating your strength and beauty and vulnerability and wishing you well as this next part of your life begins unfolding. I hate loss but it's so much a part of life. What can we do? It was really upsetting to hear of this - I send my love to you.
your strength and courage are inspiring to us all! sending good, healing and happy thoughts!
prayers and best wishes for guidance and healing, peace of mind and peace of heart, contentment ... whatever you need, especially during tough times and always.
glad you've been back to painting - and congratulations on the book!!!
kathy
Thank you so much for sharing this inspiring and honest post with us. I love seeing your studio full of paintings. Art is what always reminds me that everything is going to be okay, no matter what.
I can't wait to read your book!
P.S. Awesome shoes! :)
i'm sitting here looking at my "there is nothing wrong with you" print and sending over love and light to you dear girl. i am looking forward to seeing all that you create next...
So sorry Mati to hear your news. I'm glad you are ok & so pleased you are painting again. Best wishes Emma
oh, honey, i had no idea! sending you snuggles and squeezes, and can't wait to hug you in person in the summer - hang in there my love, it's going to okay! (it really is -- trust me) xxx
dear mati everything will be ok! you have a speacial magic and you can't ever let that fade. be strong couragious and adventure on. love your art and keep spreading it. much love to you.
peace & love
i'm so glad you're back!
oh mati, i'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through these past few months, but it's certainly true, everything is going to be okay.
it's SO nice to see you back in this space and back in your studio painting!
i'm sure that getting back to painting again will help you catch your breath and make you feel like yourself once again.
sending love and hugs!
xo *s
Dear Mati, well written.. proud of you !!!! An elderly friend commented on the hardships of her life saying "you can either get bitter or better, with God's help the choice is yours." Blessings as you travel this new road... Love and prayers, Auntie Donna
oh sweet mati what a perfect awakening, you returning yourself to the light.
loving you every step of the way.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
I am so sorry to read that and impressed with your bravery to share. By you expressing that you have comforted others today. xo
Dearest Mati Rose,
I have held a high opinion of you since I first stumbled upon your art a couple of years ago. Your bravery just adds to my respect for you.
Wishing you lots of magic, love, and healing as you travel a new path.
xoxo,
Lisa
U matter. your art matters.
We all love you and support you.
You are strong.
You are brave.
You are a miracle.
Believe in yourself again dear heart. Believe in yourself again. xo hugs
Yes, it is going to be okay. You are an amazing woman who inspires me in so many ways. I have always looked up to you and I still do. xo
Mati, that was a brave post to put up there today, and I am so so sorry ... but also glad to see that you were able to go back to painting today ... I hope you find a wonderful new chapter is just beginning for you. x
You've been in my thoughts a lot lately. I had no idea why but you just kept popping into my consciousness. I'm sorry to read that you've been through such a rough patch, but glad to see a peak of optimism in there amongst it. Yes, show the world your magic. It's such a gift. Cxxx
Hi Mati- Glad to see a sunlit post on your blog and hear about your inspiration through disappointment and sorrow. I think about you often. Take comfort knowing that a "village" is rooting for you. Love, Mary
i love you dear friend. i believe in your magic! keep shinin'
i love to see rainbow colors in your studio.
Just now catching up on this blog post and my heart goes out to you, for your current sorrow as well as to celebrate the beautiful spirit you are Mati! Of my memories from my first Artful Journey retreat, YOU stick out most for your humor and genuine kindness and I know those qualities will continue to guide you through this new phase of your life =-)
Congratulations on the book! I've put it in my wish list so I can get a copy!
I understand...and am holding the curtains wide open...for the light to shine in and warm your soul....much love to you..."YOU" are FULL of wonder and magic...peace to you as you heal and grow...AM
Dearest Mati, Thank you for this brave post. Yes, everything is going to be glorious...but it may take a while to feel it more than you don't feel it. Be good to yourself and lean on these kabillions of people who love you. xo
your particular brand of magic is wonderful.. it makes me smile to see your lovely sailboat painting on my wall. take care.
Sweet Mati, I'm so HAPPY to hear you are in this illuminating place -- it IS all going to be okay. It will be far more than okay. I love what you write about aligning with your truth and aliveness and painting your own magic! Your life will indeed break open to magnificent experiences -- your future self knows this. xoxo
Dear Mati
I am just sending you a big,enormous hug around the world. I just know you will be ok and you'll overcome the sadness. Promise.
Oh, Mati! I am so sorry to hear this news. I, myself, have been separated from my husband for over a year and it's been a journey to be sure. If it is any comfort - I will will say, it DOES get better. Sending you good thoughts.
This brings tears to my eyes, but I know you will pull through... your strength is something to admire. Looking toward the future... X
So much love for you. You are standing on the precipice of change and magic and a new path and you are correct...all is right. It is as it should be my love.
I separated 18 months ago and I'm telling you, even though you feel like you might burst into a million pieces and melt away into nothing, the sun still shines and the birds still chirp. Keep making happy elephants and smiling suns (like the ones I saw at Pier 1!). XOXOXO
Dear Mati, It is a beautiful post! You are so brave and inspiring to share. Everything is going well for you and your magic painting. Sending you good thoughts and ((hugs)). Enjoy the beginning of your journey! xo
You are such an incredible, strong, resourceful friend. Excited to see what your new life will bring! xo Sending love your way...
that sounds good...
be strong
Lovely expression of hope here. I would like to award you the Versatile Blogger award for inspiring me with your art. http://theteacupincident.typepad.com/the-teacup-incident/2012/03/the-versatile-blogger-award.html
thank goodness for art. it has nutured my soul on more than a few occasions.
Domenico
so many words to say and when I type them they do NOT come out right.
I hate that.
I've always loved photography, since I was 13 but when I got divorced...my heart seemed to find another way to tell about my life when I couldnt or wouldnt find the words.
may your story find its way out of you in every way possible.
sweet you. just making the blog rounds and came by here to see what you might be posting. and here you are letting your big beautiful light shine. a big beautiful life. yours. yes it is. love & light to you.
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